Behind the Scenes
The chorus for Help Me Stand was written in 2008 and was quite a bit different than what was sung in the final version of the song. In fact, while I was writing the verses, God was showing we why I needed to change the chorus. Which was probably one of the reasons why I was crying at times!
Originally it was written this way:
I will stand, I will be strong,
Despite the challenges I just don't understand,
I will stand tall, In the sinking sand,
For I know that you'll lead me to the promise land,
I will stand.
The chorus was originally written as an affirmation, and I've sung it just that way a great many times over the years. But as I was working on the rest of the song it was impressed upon me that it needed to be written and changed to the way it is now:
In life there are many moments when we feel like we are sinking in the sand or drowning in the water. But during those moments we must do as Peter did and look the Jesus and cry out, "Lord, save me!" Our Lord is always watching for when we may fall or begin to sink. His hands are always there ready to lift you up and out of that sinking sand. (Check out Matthew 8:23-27 for Peter's story.)
all the "promise land" that God has for me, it's more important that His hand be leading and guiding me through each step that I take in my life.
4/29/2013-The Rest of the song....While the chorus was written all the way back in 2008...this was the day that the rest of Help Me Stand was written. I love how God brings parts of songs I wrote years ago and brings them together so well! It just shows and reminds me that He is in control and knows so much more than I do! And if He can do this with music...He can do it in my life as well!
In the world today temptations are so close. Some days all I have to do is check my facebook page to feel discontented, sad and fall into despair or depression. That doesn't count all the other things that tempt and try to push into our minds from friends, books, the news, Internet....you get the picture. When I get to feeling down or upset I feel so bad that I've allowed those things to take over and cloud my mind and focus. Some times the temptations seem like walking through mud in thick fog...I look around and can't seem to find where I should and desire to be in my relationship with the Lord. My biggest fear has always been that I will lose my way so badly that I won't be used of God. But somehow He always shows mercy and brings me back!
During all the moments above where life is crashing around we must keep looking to our Lord and just praying for His strength. It's only when our walk with Christ is strong that we can truly be victorious in our life.
I know a lot of the songs I've written deal with trials, so forgive me if as I publish more of them you see the same thing over and over; but, it is through the trials that God guides, teaches and leads us in the way He desire us to go. It is by His grace that He gives us a free will and doesn't force us to do anything. Yet if we trust Him to lead, He will give us the desires of our hearts and so much more. He sees a much bigger picture than we could ever see on this earth. I know many of you have heard of the puzzle illustration. How when you only see one or just a few pieces of the puzzle you can't get the whole picture. However, God sees the whole puzzle of our life.
So often I cry, whimper, whine and stamp my little feet in frustration at what God is doing in my life. Only to be reminded that just because I didn't get my way doesn't mean that He's not working. God's timing is perfect and although at times it's so hard to keep that in mind, someday I will get to see the whole picture and it will all make sense. It's just not going to happen until I get to heaven.
It is true, we don't deserve any of the goodness God gives to us; and yet, His mercies are new each and everyday. This alone should encourage us to kneel and pray.