As some of you may know in October of 2002 the Lord took my dad to be with Him. The years since have been very trying and difficult. Many times I've wondered why God has chosen for my family to travel this path. Sometimes I've even felt bitter about the way my life has been. I've asked God why He couldn't have allowed me to have my father here. It would have made things so much easier. Perhaps, I wouldn't have been so lonely and my heart wouldn't have a huge empty place that my dad used to fill.
The following song, Remember, was written in March and May of 2009. The verses are basically me crying out to to the Lord and the chorus is the reminder that we must trust and remember that God is with us even through those dark and confusing times.
The first verse comes from the moments where I would lay awake at night feeling alone, missing my dad or maybe it was just the daily challenges that sometimes just get to overwhelming. I would often cry and just look at the shadows that lined the walls. In those moments my heart would be crying out and asking the Lord to be with me.
Sometimes when it seems life is going awry,
No hope just sorrow and tears dim your eye,
Should I go? Should I follow?
Lord, what should I do?
Father you know that I'm depending on you!
Life always has little surprises that seem to just creep up in the most inopportune moments. It's then that the questions begin to flow. What should I do? Often I've felt so lost as to what direction to take. But I know that God is leading in my life and I must stay focused and trust that He has a plan for everything that happens.
God is always with us and His reply to all our questions and fears is simple.
Remember, God is always near,
Remember, He takes away our fears,
So lift your hands and shout out a loud song of praise,
For He has saved us by His grace.
The Lord can turn all our fears and all our doubts around to a song of praise that will give glory and honor to Him. He already knows each of the steps we have to take and He's always by our side. We just need to remember to turn to Him.
One of the greatest blessings that happened during the writing phase of this song was the bridge part at the end. My mom often hears me playing music. She never really has any idea what the songs are about until I sing them for her. So all she had ever heard was the piano part. Words came into her heart as she heard the music and finally she wrote the words down. She came to me and said, "Every time you play that one song these words come into my mind. I don't know if it will work or if you can use it but here it is."
The words fit perfectly. It was as if after all the struggles (the verses) and the reminding of God being there (the chorus) the words for the bridge where an affirmation. A statement that one would say to keep on running the race to the finish.
I will not give up, I am not afraid, I will not give into defeat.
I will stand upon the Word of God whereon He sets my feet.
I love it when something like that happens!!! Isn't God great!
My goal is to continue to share music God has given me and I pray that it will be a blessing to all who hear it.